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n o n f i c t i o n   by   a d a m s o p k o


Climate Change: Cowboy Birth in Wyoming’s Dying Cattle Country

Outside my Wilderness winnebago there is a soft frost on the ground.  The sun reaching above the badlands to the east throws shades of yellow and orange.  The air is cold and the field nearest the river is alive not only with calves and cows but Canadian geese that roost here during the spring and early summer.  The outhouse door is swung wide to the rising sun and the toilet seat is cold to the point of unfriendly; but it is beautiful and silent and still and the cows are welcome as the geese and the sun, so I sit longer through the cold than necessary.

It’s March 2 and the cottonwood and Russian olive that line the river have not yet budded.  New grasses and alfalfa shoots are not yet visible.  The earth is brown and yellow and bare and I am a green cowboy beginning a two and half month stint in Wyoming’s cattle country through the calving season.

* * *
Wyoming cowboys have long been figures of romance.  The images are still fresh, still plastered over billboard signs fostering idols of solitude and sureness, ruggedness and uncompromising masculinity. From Wyatt Earp to the Marlboro Man, cowboys are brute, restless, evolutionary.  They are the link still visible between modern man’s technological development and his conquering of our continent.  And while much of history already holds the icon in posterity, cowboys yet inhabit the untamed territory, remain masters of untamed animals and continue to conquer a way of life beset on all sides by the evils of economy, politics, and progress. 

The Big Horn Basin in north central Wyoming nestles itself between three mountain ranges, the Carter and Owl Creek Mountains to the west and southwest and the Big Horn Mountains to the east.  In the Basin’s center sits Worland, the largest of the communities in the region with a population that bulges to no greater than 5500 in its best years.  It was in Worland that my parents settled, that I was raised, that I came to loathe and at once appreciate the John Deere green that colored the region agricultural, hard-working, and prejudiced.

So there was little question as I left the remainder of my belongings on a San Francisco street corner at four in the morning, waiting for the cab that would return me first to the Wyoming where I was raised, second to the Wyoming I never knew.  I grew up in Wyoming, surrounded by agriculture and ranching, good old boys talking about the good old days, cowboy hats and wranglers; more exacting however, I grew out of Wyoming.  Never did I rope and ride the way many did and many still do.  Never did I take to the pleasures of chewing tobacco, chaps and spurs.  I left Wyoming, cursing it under my breath for underdevelopment and backwards if not backcountry philosophies.  Outwardly I relished my western upbringing, gloried in the history available to me, relished the thought that I hailed from the most brilliant land in the most beautiful country.  “Sure I could cowboy,” I told my friend as he proposed the time spent calving.  It was just a matter of quitting my job, breaking the lease on my apartment and dusting off my never-worn Stetson.

* * *
While fantasy was Wyoming’s original commodity – old west ways, shoot ‘em ups and rodeos – we’re witness now to a real estate boom whose results may include an accelerated end to the cowboy.  The Big Horn Mountains, the Tetons and ranges all across Wyoming are seen now as the final frontier for vacationers seeking their own personal and private piece of paradise.  Ranch lands are fetching sums no rancher can afford and the landscapes are being turned over to the wealthy and their contemporary vision of heaven; keep just enough cows on the land for agricultural tax exemptions and the super-rich enjoy their ride into the sunset that much more.

The rising price of real estate in the area is much of the reason that Lloyd Nielson and his partner belong to a ranching association.  The Otter Creek Association is a conglomerate of ranching families.  Like Wyoming, there is a history in it that bears more on its management than sound grazing practices and a good market.  The Association owns or leases nearly 75,000 acres between the desert and the southern tip of the Big Horn Mountains.  On those acres a total of 2,200 shares (or cow/calf pairs) may be run.  In addition to various dues and fees, for every share a rancher in the Association owns, $13.50 must be paid per month for a six month stretch.  Those six months represent the time a member’s herd will be pastured on the association’s land in the desert and high country.  There is a full-time manager and hired-hand and at all times, the work done to maintain corrals, fences, reservoirs, etc. is tended to by members of the association and the help they provide.  For the next two and half months, much of that help will be Lloyd’s son, Hunter, and I. 

The Association also pools its resources in terms of bulls.  There are roughly one hundred and ten bulls owned by the group and maintained by the manager, a wiry old cowboy with a soft but acidic tongue.  This means also that the majority of the Association’s members raise Black Angus cattle compared to any number of other breeds.  Ranching is about genetics because the sale is about genetics.  Pure bred brings the most money.  At bull sales, the bulls with the greatest genetic history fetch the greatest sums.  Taken into account are birth weight, weaning weight, and various indexes that may prefigure a cow’s milk productivity and the birth weight of a particular bull’s offspring. 

The aim of any ranch then, is to increase the size of the herd.  If a cow is no longer reproductive she is culled.  If a bull is no longer reproductive he is culled.  If a cow aborts or proves riley she is culled. Simply, from one year to the next, a rancher is concerned with successfully breeding as many cows as possible.  The more sexually active a herd, the better.  The more sexually aggressive a bull, the better.  Bulls are tested fall and spring for sexually transmitted diseases and virility.  What’s the circumference of the scrotum?  The greater the better. 

* * *
Our first morning is a hard one, as mornings will go.  Even before I understand the powers and virtues of the landscape, and long before I am comfortable with my first day’s work and the promise of future days, we are upon a diseased calf whose contribution to the ranch before it dies will be only to pass along whatever ailment has infected it.  This is a rancher’s problem.  Raising cattle, breeding cows, weaning calves is about the law of averages; it is about genetics and history and what contagions remain in the soil.  Trichomaniasis, scours, over-eating disorder – from sexually transmitted diseases to infectious pathogens the rancher fights nature’s health while he similarly tries to manipulate it. 

Today Lloyd will handle nature – hopefully nipping the spread of whatever is killing this calf – in a violent fashion.  In so doing I can’t distinguish if Lloyd is proving himself more cowboy, more Wyoming, or more man.  We do not have a gun on hand so it is the blunt end of a hatchet that does the trick.  I am amazed at the lack of sound; the dull thud as if marble dropped on marble, as the hatchet rebounds.  The calf’s skull doesn’t buckle beneath the rain – it doesn’t split.  The charge of three blows like a hammer against an already finished nail works its way through the limp body in mechanical fashion.

The cowboy is iconic.  He became so for reasons told in dime store novels, the way he answered that intangible call to the wild, the way he made sport of brutality and animal mastery.  He is stolid and metaphoric: the taming of the west, the wresting of the continent away from tyranny and savagery.  The rise of the cowboy was the rebirth of masculinity, a nineteenth century answer to a country turned civilized and dainty.  Wyoming would be the resting-place, the region where politics and economics would garner those stigmas and make them bedrock. 

The calf is dead and Lloyd apologizes.  This is why Hunter and I will have guns at the ranch, he says.  Lloyd is a chemist turned car dealer turned cowboy.  He lives in Wyoming because in Wyoming self-preservation is the virtue, not social engineering.  He is a rancher because he loves its way, its people, and the power and puzzles it provides.  More often than not Lloyd tries to out-think the cows or the cowboys.  He rarely rides a horse, doesn’t throw a lariat, but if called upon he will prove brutal, uncompromising, businesslike.  Unlike real cowboys however, he betrays his boyish love for the game with a gregarious personality.  He is too quick to laugh at himself through the cursing and the frustration.  Real cowboys, real Wyomingites don’t do that.

8 March 
In Wyoming, self-sufficiency is a goal.  The rancher is dependent upon himself and his family.  After that it is the hired hand, often times understood as a member of the immediate family.  The cowboy then considers himself responsible for all things within his sphere, whether it’s cows, cars, or the conditions which affect all of the above.

The ranch then is ideal when it is self-sustaining, self-contained, self-sufficient.  Which makes most ranchers also farmers, and most ranches farms.  Even Lloyd is moving towards a more independent operation despite the constraints on his time.  His ranch outside Basin, just north of Worland, is gaining much needed ground.  Nearing capacity in terms of cattle, his acres are also nearing a size great enough to yield a sufficient quantity of oat-hay or alfalfa during the growing period.  When a ranch is able to farm enough of its own land so as to garner the feed necessary to make it through the barren winters, then the rancher is steps closer to independence. 

* * *
The first week of the calving season is over and I am the picture of cowardice.  The cows are frightening.  It is our charge to see that every newborn calf is on the ground healthy.  After that we tag them, record their colorings and their sex, and castrate the bulls.  When that is said and done, the cow-calf pair is to moved to different pasture so that the herd of haves is kept separate from the have-nots.  What is intimidating about so simple a process is not the ninety-pound calf bawling in confusion, but the twelve hundred-pound cow with maternal, animal instincts. 

The pregnant cows in our care are kept on a triangular bit of acreage that surrounds our trailer.  In the night we take a last stroll through the darkness, concerned with the hypothetical cow in breech or distress.  I am afraid of the night, of the dark, the stampede of cows and rodents, and the unknown.  I wear a braver face when we eventually give the night back to the eyes that shine in our lamplight. 

In the morning as we feed eighteen-hundred pound round-bails using a hydraulic lift, we count the new calves in our little maternity ward, recording the numbers written onto rubber tags that dangle from mother’s left ear.  In the afternoon we plod about, driving alongside the newborns and grabbing hold of a hind leg with a lengthy aluminum hook.  I am the picture of Little Bo-Peep.  Thrown into the bed of the truck one of us straddles the calf on its back, holding its hind legs while the other slips two sturdy bands around the scrotum (if a bull) and pierces the left ear with a tag to match mother’s.  The cowboys of old and so many of the cowboys that remain dare not tangle with such passive-aggressive ways.  It is not two rubber bands that slowly deprive a bull of his strictly male development but a steady and sharpened blade.

More benevolent, Hunter and I are far from iconic.  Most would consider us “dudes,” a term more pejorative in these contexts than in L.A. and more widely used than expected.  As dudes we’re easily spotted. We don’t ride and we don’t rope.  We don straw cowboy hats when most wear felt, Carharts where all wear Wranglers. 

25 March 
Well into March I am a cowboy on the make.  I fashion myself of the metaphors and idioms gleaned in the past weeks, coloring my cowardice and my speech with façade.  I am eager to do this or that when in the company of cowboys, showing a willingness to work and a charge to action (that I assume) keeps secret my misunderstanding.  Hunter and I are quick to jump and slow to think for fear of being outed even further.  While most accept us on a patronizing level, answering our questions in honest fashion but anticipating a degree of helpfulness on par with a moving fence post, it is our aim not to be seen differently, just seen.

Cowboys embody and embrace images that die-hard.  They are hard working and determined and while their acumen may be limited to a particular set of causes and their predetermined effects, they accommodate these with practiced intention.  The cowboy continues from the source, from the mold, rarely diverting his attention from expected (so much more than anticipated) outcomes.  A fence is built in this manner, in this order, to these dimensions.  A cow will need this much feed, this much water, to make it this far or this long in the desert.  This variable prefigures this summation.  My grandfather did it this way.  My father.  This is the way I will do it.  Because Lloyd is without blueprint, he makes gains that others do not – in efficiency, production, etc.  Because he is without foundation he is met with loss – in respect, welcome, appreciation.

The cowboy works from the mold outward.  Preserving the good as well as the bad.  Speaking to that point, Lloyd puts it that “there are more ways to be a bigot in this world than you can imagine.”  And while the cowboy is at one time a hard working character, conscious of family and community ties, he is equally a voice of old-fashioned prejudice. 

Overlooking the visible ignorances, it is the contrasts that contribute to the beauty of this place and this way.  The landscapes, like the cowboys that remain, exist in intense ways, embracing the natural and historic fashion to the point of cliché.  The mountains, deserts, and the foliage in between are stark, lone, aggressive.  Like the cowboy, the country is clad in essentials.  The opportunity for ornament – spring and fall for the mountain with the budding and changing of leaves; a rodeo or wedding or fourth of July celebration for the cowboy and his dress wranglers – is seasonal and so met with an appreciable flare.  The cowboy drinks and curses and approaches strangers with caution.  The mountain too swells in its own manner, sheds visitors at its whim with an embrace of cold, a hello of rain or snow.  Neither converse unless suited to do so.

23 April 
Working your way into the graces of these communities is not easy. The opportunities to gain those graces are few and they come only at the price of a hard sweat.  Work brings the area together and while the niche may be as large as the county the pathway to acceptance (and conversation) is a narrow one.  A branding continues to be one of those roadways.

This offers a wonderful irony; while the cowboy’s existence is predominated by a silent and solitary way, the mechanisms most powered by this culture are based on an implicit communal understanding.  The cowboy and his hand, while rightly associated with quiet and steady work, become integral components in the machinery necessitated by so great a task as branding and inoculating calves.  Cowboys and their families turn out en masse, passively acknowledging a cowboy order that contributed to the earliest successes in this wilderness and continues today.  Self, family, community – beyond that, the cowboy prefers ignorance.  If it is drawn outside those lines, if powers beyond their immediate control threaten their immediate circles, it is an uphill battle and the resistance is silent most often, grudging forever.

Today the landscape is alive with the trail of cows.  Cowboys are strung out at the back and flanks, barking and yelping in high-pitched tones at the cows and calves that straggle.  Occasionally a palette rich in expletives spills its colors into the air. 

Brandings are the great cowboy mechanism.  Like a barn raising, numbers apply the appropriate force to tackle the task; each contributing according to silently understood roles.  Most women, in particular the women of the hosting ranch, spend the morning preparing the day’s lunch, made complete only when two meats are served, beans, breads, casseroles and desserts fill the available tables.  The men that can ride and rope take their turns, two at a time, sauntering through a collection of cows and calves, roping the calves and dragging them to the waiting wrestlers whose loveable job it is to hold the calf prone and still during its fixings.  One man on the head, one man on the heel, as many as five calves are held to the dirt at one time while others move through the melee performing various functions: branding, inoculating, castrating, tagging, ear marking, de-horning.  Every person has a task and the number of calves on the ground makes every task the more efficient.  One man brands; a woman offers one injection, marking the jowl of the calf with an oil marker to note her place; another woman applies a shot to the nostrils and marks her place.  The calves buck and bolt and bawl in undeveloped tongues as the hot iron is pressed to their hide.  The flesh burns pink and wrinkles in the heat and there is a smell as thick as the blue-green smoke. 

One cowboy grabs hold of the scrotum and pulls it from the calf’s underbelly.  With a convincing push and tug he cuts off the stretched end of the sack, revealing the testicles that hang in staggered fashion. They’re pulled again from the body and cut free, thrown in a bucket now half-filled – fried in a heavy batter, the next branding’s appetizers.  He rinses the knife and cuts off the tip of the left ear.  With that the calf is let to its feet where it wastes little time despite the confusion.  It is a first rate circus.  All know their parts without direction and here Hunter and I are awarded with silent approval. 

When the branding is done we wash in bunkhouse fashion and file into a kitchen typical of ranch homes.  Countertops are covered in a collection of dust, papers, tools, and various ranching paraphernalia.  A pair of spurs act as a paperweight, themselves anchored to the mess with a coil of leather braid.  Ranching fashion has it that the horses and vehicles are tended to long before the home.

Sitting around the table for lunch may be the most difficult experience to date, as the silence is louder and more consistent than chitchat.  The room is dominated by history and those around rely on it to control the tempo.  History seems to govern the thoughts and the banter, as if the men rely mostly on some unwritten ranching almanac.  The topics are predetermined as their outcomes.  Conversation is carried out in low, staccato bursts.  Questions are asked and answered with the same vocabulary, the intonation is all that changes.  “Going-to move ‘em up the mountain starting Sunday?”  “Going to move ‘em up the mountain starting Sunday.”  It is not so much that those at the table embrace an academic understanding of their particular roots, the heritage in their trade, or a particular appreciation of the ties that have bound these families together for so long.  It is simpler than that.  Self, family, community.  Rely on the one before the other.  Rely on the herd only in the end.  Mince words with yourself, question only yourself or your family, ask the community only what you already know, you’ll not get more nor would you give more. 

The irony is what gets you.  The cowboys collect at any cost, willing always to aid, to support the community and its quid pro quo ways.  But even such alignments don’t lead to deeply rooted friendships, and the cowboy continues even today in the fashion he made famous – singular.

1 May 
In the evening hours I am convinced of brilliance.  Hunter and I have taken to the fields as the sun sets.  We are surrounded by a rich emptiness.  The calves frolic and the cows are less wary as they have been fed and become the more accustomed to our meandering about the farm.  Each evening, as geese enter the fields in great geometric patterns, thousands of smaller birds, starlings perhaps, cut the sky into sections as they move.  We hear them in the trees and as they pound the air above us.  They too frolic, moving as some great black cloud, coursing through the blue as schools of fish through brilliant seas.  The light is warm as the mood.  Here I am reassured of my decisions.

Night falls in two fashions.  Often it is still and solemn.  Other nights are turned inside out with the din of clashing leaves and the eerie belch of pregnant cows.   When serenity prevails, the cottonwoods that surround our trailer do not move.  They do not shudder at the calm crisp air the way I do, they do not whisper to each other through a banter of leaves.  While the night is governed by something charging it to be still, the darkness accelerates the power and piercing of the calm and cool and silence.  These are the nights when the darkness is frightening.  Only after the dangers and the stillness have been accounted for is it magnificent and splendid. 

I regard the weather for a time, the cows and their calves.  I am fettered to an appreciation of this world.  Saddened by my understanding of the defeats and how they must outnumber the victories.  Ranching in Wyoming is threatened on all sides.  The thought persists more today than yesterday, more this year than last year, that Wyoming is a cliché.  Its various symbols – the cowboy, the Indian, its mountains and prairies – simply prevailing anecdotes for west-headed Easterners in the family minivan forcing through the terrain on a hot July morning.  I came not to further dismiss the clichés but to embrace them, to turn them over and discover if their undersides do not reveal a future for their wonderful metaphors.

There are few things so beautiful as the imagery presented by the lone cowboy atop his horse, the powerful herd ahead of him and the setting sun behind.  Unfortunately, beauty does not intimate power, and something about this image is changing, changing slowly.  The herd is thinning, scattering perhaps.  The cowboy’s eyes are no longer intently trained on the herd, but taking more careful note of the sun behind.  The sun is setting and for the first time the cowboy understands that the sun is setting on his herd, on his way.  The shadows of policy and politics are stretching before him, passing him.  There is no longer a friendly warmth on his shoulders but a growing chill.  Like the trail and pastures ahead, his future is indeterminate.  While this same sun convinces me of wondrous things, it is portentous of the coming darkness.  The twilight of western Americana is nearer now than at any point in history.

19 May 
In the end the ranch is still and silent, differently than when we first arrived.  The cows are gone to the high country to pasture for the summer.  The barn is empty.  The fields are flush with alfalfa and the cottonwoods cast a heavy shade.  It is hot and tiresome and the ranch, it seems, prefigures the future of Wyoming, of ranching, of the cowboy.  Despite the rich yield the land has to offer, it is the silent landscape and its imaginative holdings that will reign.  The view will be purchased, an intangible investment whose returns will double if not triple those made when this very same land is sewn and harvested, flooded with cows and their calves. 

Now into a new century, Wyoming and ranching in particular succeed by virtue of their own inertia.  But physical laws still apply and the momentum that carries this way and these people on will succumb to those forces opposing it – economics, politics, the price of paradise itself.  Stereotype prevails in many ways, supported here by its foundations of rhetoric and action, form and function.  The cowboy remains aloof, silent, brute.  He dresses the same, acts the same, struggles the same.  But even surrounded by the certainties of tradition and ornament, you hear the trappings of his demise.  “What’d the market do today?”  “You check your email?”

The argument is made that by managing the forces around you, those that govern your life and your past and those that augur an end to your peculiar ways, by embracing the changes around you while celebrating and supporting the centuries long stasis, you would perhaps better make the long awaited and prefigured transitions before you.  Ironically however, embracing the changing currencies – technology, real estate, the value of perspective – you instead augment if not reproduce from the inside the influences that so torture and torment from the outside.  The rancher tuned to the information age, the global village supporting the global economy, transforms himself and his understanding of his ranching; he in fact dismantles it.  The cowboy who has traded horse for four-wheeler, form for function, is no longer a cowboy. 

The ranch is still and silent, differently than when we first arrived.

©2003 Adam Sopko

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